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Not one of my better days ~ MH is recovering and could have come home from the hospital yesterday but the Home Health Care messed everything up so badly it will take until tomorrow morning now.
I was so frustrated I finally lost my mind or at the very least my composure today at about 3pm. If you were at the Big Lots today, yes, I was the old lady screaming at someone on a cell phone and kicking the shelves holding the Christmas trees. In the past 24 hours I've been on the receiving end of enough lies, bullsh*t and incompetence to last me through the end of 2012. So for now, I'm sitting very quietly typing out my thoughts because I just cannot take anymore nonsense tonight.
Yesterday I had lunch at Red Lobster (my friend's invitation) - I had shrimp nachos (although all I could find in the diary lookup was lobster nachos so I posted 'that'and although I ate less than half of them, primarily the shrimp & salsa, leaving the cheese & chips on the platter, I just took the 'hit' on the RDI.
I also took a hit on my stomach ~ as I'm now nearly 90 days into this 'better eating' the greasy melted cheese made me queasy. Three months ago I'd have licked that platter clean.
I did NOT throw up though and that's important because I am working very hard to not use 'binge/purge' as part of this weight loss as I have in the past.
But the queasy feeling remained even after a couple of antacids and an apple and hot tea. So although I wasn't deathly ill, I was curious.
So I went on a 'taste' binge - tasting everything still around the house that I don't eat anymore - wondering if I would miss it.
I didn't need to taste cheddar cheese but had cheezits, onion dip, and chocolate. While I recorded a whole 'butterfinger' that was the only way I could figure out to give an equivalent to the five miniature candies. I'm sure I could keep looking or add it in myself but it's not that important - most of it was spit out into the trash (sorry) so it won't be something I'll be having again anytime soon or part of my regular daily intake to worry about the accuracy. I didn't miss it, in fact, I didn't enjoy it at all.
Thankfully it was time to go to bed - while ideally I guess it's best to try something like that earlier in the day and 'work it off' I don't exercise so it wouldn't matter however the cause and effect (likely increase in blood sugar) might have set off a day long craving had it been earlier in the day. So off to bed I went and today, I was no worse for the test. I woke, had oatmeal and a 1/2 a grapefruit for breakfast and was quite contented. In fact, I can now eat oatmeal with cinnamon & flax only - no artificial sweetner needed.
I think the most challenging part of this journey for the rest of my life will be to continue finding new foods that I like that like me back. It gets very easy to grow weary of chicken. I realized last night that except for the dry seaweed I had for a snack I didn't have any vegetables at all unless you count the potato in the chowder. How very unlike my normal day.
I watched that movie 'Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead' the other night and am mildly considering a juicer. Not because I want to subsist on juice only but I do find myself really tired of preparing a meal at times. Well, not preparing it, just thinking of 'what to fix that wasn't the same as yesterday and the day before and the day before that.' At least it would provide a nourishing input on those days I don't feel like being culinary.
Before I buy a juicer though I need to visit somewhere that serves it and try it first. It may gross me out to the point that I have just another dusty appliance. And it did seem like it took a great deal of raw vegetables to make one glass of juice. I liked the idea of an 'instant delivery system' for the nourishment but ... again, still in the consideration phase.
It amazes me how fast he lost the weight without suffering any damaging side effects. I guess that's the difference between starvation and one's body being able to process intake more efficiently.
Well, I'm going to go take a long hot shower. Tomorrow is another day.
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1322 kcal
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Grasa: 26,72g | Prot: 75,99g | Carbh: 227,56g.
Desayuno: Grapefruit, Creamer, Flax Seed, Quaker Old Fashioned Oatmeal, Coffee. Almuerzo: Tomato Slices, Lettuce, Pickle Chips, Dannon Light & Fit Greek. Cena: Salad, Avocado, Schwans California Blend, Dill Pickle, Red Tomatoes, Schwans Chicken Breast. Pasa Bocas / Otros: 2% Cheese Slice, Grapes, Staceys Bagel Chips, Progresso Turkey Noodle Soup, Fiber One - Eve Snack, Orange. más...
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3258 kcal
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Ejercicio:
Compras - 1 hora, Caminar (Lento) - 3/kph - 1 hora, Tareas del Hogar - 2 horas, Descansando - 12 horas, Durmiendo - 8 horas. más...
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