Diario de melissatwa, 29 feb. 20

My little friend joined me for morning coffee, and I am sitting here counting my blessings. Warning... this might get long. I am thankful for a warm lap and good coffee. The things for which I am seriously thankful are that at this particular moment all my kids are safe. They are in good relationship with me, their dad, and each other. Is there any blessing greater than that? It hasn't always been so,and I don't know if it will always last. But, for this moment, things are beautiful. I feel so strong and healthy, and that is a total change for me. Years and years of hating how I looked and felt have melted away with the fat that burdened me. I am so thankful... thankful from the bottom of my heart for the dear people here who have and are supporting me and believing in me. I am still finding my way and making mistakes and trying to figure out how maintaining my fitness and weight will be accomplished going forward for the years to come. I have hope and I am absolutely determined to keep at this forever. This is really, really strange for me to say, but I am learning to love me. I was raised and have lived to always put myself last. I was to wear myself out in service for others and never think of myself. Now I am thankful that I know I deserve the time I spend on myself going to the gym or walking or running. I've given and given and given, and now there is time for me. With a lighter heart and body, I am more able to live for others still! Anyway, so much for my rambling. I feel really odd saying all this, but it is on my heart this morning. May we all be thankful for where we have come, what we have, and that no matter our situation, we have the opportunity NOW to make better choices.