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I am humiliated and miserable to post this gain. A diet of stress and potato chips has wrecked me. I must stop and change my ways. I have excuses, but I know what I am putting in my mouth. After years of maintaining the loss of 45 pounds... At least keeping close to my goal weight, I feel lost. I am not asking for advice on how to meal prep or what kind of food to eat or how much to walk. I know these things. I have zero time for extra in my life. We are a family of 9 right now. I am not responsible for everything by any means, but my world is so full. It is a beautiful privilege to help others, but I need to help myself starting today or I will lose myself.
Today I vow to record here daily... my intake and my weight. I was thinking that I would have a goal to lose some by a vacation. We have been planning to visit my husband's family in BC in one month. I tend to do better with a deadline. Now I realize it simply won't be possible for me to go. I have too many "responsibilities" who need me.
My husband will be gone for more than a week starting this coming Wednesday. I will miss him and that car!
I have another "daughter" coming to visit at the beginning of August for a couple weeks. She lived with us when she was 16 and comes back every couple years. I have a bed for her, which will be available because one of my daughters will be house sitting locally. This available bedroom happens to be the curtained off dining room. So... it is not exactly private but exactly where our German daughter slept the first time she lived with us nearly 8 years ago! At least it is more private than the living room where two others are sleeping. At the moment two sleep on mats on the ground and one kid has a couch. When I say "kids," the youngest ones are 18.
Happily, I am only working 4 days a week right now. Everyone can and does help with cooking and or they eat simply put together meals like sandwiches or eggs. Rarely ever is everyone home to eat together. I just need to stop putting easy junk in my mouth.
I have some injuries plaguing me, so working out is so frustrating. I think I will try to go with a couple kids next week. We will see. The youngest two have a free membership to my gym for the summer, and they actually need someone to drive them. That should push me to go!
Ok... life awaits!
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73,3 kg
Disminuído hasta ahora: 13,4 kg.
Aún para ir: 5,2 kg.
Dieta seguida: Bien.
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1121 kcal
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Grasa: 38,53g | Prot: 30,14g | Carbh: 173,89g.
Desayuno: 2% Fat Milk. Almuerzo: Power Up Mega Omega Trail Mix (Package), Brach's Mott's Fruit Snacks. Cena: Maple Syrup , Sugar, Fried Egg, Franz San Juan Island Nine Grain Bread, Famous Dave's Corn on The Cob, Peach. Pasa Bocas / Otros: Nectarines . más...
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We all fall and making the times shorter between falling and getting up is all we can do! You sound like an amazing woman. What you are doing is a great start.
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: cfroncek
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So glad you are committed to meet your goals, even though the "going" is difficult.
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: sugarplum_
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see how many people care about you? don't hate on yourself.
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: Katsolo
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Thank you all so much for your kindness and encouragement. "My" new girls are pretty new to me. I had met one a couple times before, but I had never actually met the other. It is very likely they will be with us at least until fall. Lots of adjustments, but lots of joy too in being able to give them a place even if we are a bit crowded. I'll try to reply more later to folks. I'm for sure trying to keep on track today with my I take.! Thst I can control ... In theory! 🤣
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: melissatwa
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I agree with Kat about not beating yourself up. I found this interesting as I can knock myself around as well. https://www.socialwork.career/2013/05/the-surprising-reason-we-beat-ourselves-up-and-what-to-do-about-it.html
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: sk.17
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Welcome back! I'm glad you came back when did - just 15 lbs from your goal weight rather than at your all-time high. I hope you find that eating healthy alleviates more stress than it creates - I know I did. You can be free of any negative emotions/guilt about eating poorly, and filled with satisfaction, (pride?), confidence, and anticipation because you are now moving in the right direction, and every day moves you closer to your goal weight and good health!
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: zapotz
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Pardon me for being presumptuous, but you definitely sound like you are stress eating. I think you don't take enough time for "me" time. You don't have to go to the gym...if you have injuries, than you don't want to make them worse. You can take a walk. Just if you are at the gym, take it easy. The only person you should be focusing on is YOU. I used to not like going to the gym with other people. I used to feel pressured to work out at THEIR pace, but that quickly diminished when I wound up hurting myself. So, YOU DO YOU! And don't feel "humiliated!" There's no need! You know what you need for yourself. No one else's opinion matters if you are trying to do what you need to do...even if you fall off the wagon a few times, it's OK!! You just make sure that you get back on track when you feel up to it.
I was in a funk for close to 10 years. I finally decided to take MY life BACK! My health was hurting, I didn't really feel anything emotionally, especially after this whole COVID shutdown. Now, I want myself back! I'm down 82 lbs. since January and I'm NOT looking back! I didn't like "me" for the last 10 years and the people around me just enabled my situation. So, I'm coming into my own. if you look at my chart, I will NEVER record if I gained a pound or two, because I know it's one of a few things: building muscle mass, water retention, or indulging. I keep track of all my calories still, and I ALWAYS come back the next day stronger. I'm not going to let a little setback discourage me from my ultimate goal. I worked very hard the past 6 months, and for myself, I will continue to work hard to reach my final goal and STAY THERE. LOL! I also don't try to starve myself, but I found that with the new fresh foods I eat and make, I get full a lot faster than I did before, so that's good!
You'll get to the place you need to be, but take care of your mental state as well! It's just my opinion, but I think if you spent a day by yourself, just doing planned things like a massage, and a walk around an art gallery, and a nice healthy lunch...just a "me" day, not thinking about anyone or anything else, I think your spirit will totally be lifted! I relish those days! I truly do! I like to spend time alone in a salt room...OMG. SO PEACEFUL!!! Best of luck to you!!
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: jenhoven
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Sending hugs. You should be proud to be always there for your natural and your adopted family. I know you can get back to taking some care of yourself
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: SieteTresEva
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Shadow the cat sends you a high five!!! Nothing to be humiliated about.
Diet and managing weight is a life long adventure. My goal is to finally get down to 145 hopefully one day. But I have set up mini goals. I am hoping in 6 months I have something to show. I have all my before photos and looking forward to taking a new weight loss photo and then doing a collage for fatsecret. You are a true superstar!!! 🏆
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: Maine coon
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Melissa, you're awesome and considering everything that you're doing for others are still so impressive and inspirational to us all! You got this! ❤️🌝
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: -Diablo
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16 jul. 22 por el miembro: _bec_ca
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You're a major blessing in the world around you!
My husband and I also parented his 2, our 2, his ex-wife's 2 and all of the many who came into our home in need. As you say, there were several times when there just isn't a place left for anyone to lay their head. Somehow you will find a way to make room in your house and your heart for the next ones.
I know you know this, but sometimes we need to hear it outside of our own head. If you give all of yourself, there is nothing left. When I was asked how I did it, I always said I was too busy doing it to think about how!
You are a Beautiful Blessing to a messy world!
I'm praying for you to find peace and strength in your crazy world!
Just draw strength from the knowledge that you are making a difference in the lives of many others.
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: SLYONE 22
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Wow. There is no way I'd be capable of doing what you are doing! You are a true superwoman. I'm glad you realize you need time for yourself. In order to take care of other people, first you must take care of yourself! Its true. That is why in emergency situations you are told to put on your own oxygen mask first! Keep that in mind.
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: BeauxS
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Thank you for being so real and sharing your struggles. I’m sure most of us can relate in some way. You are amazing for taking everything on that you are. Knowing you’re dissatisfied with something is the first step. You’ve got this! 💙♥️
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: Shake Those Pounds
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Sounds like you have your hands full.
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: -MorticiaAddams
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Support is flowing from my heart to yours Melissa ❤️❤️❤️
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: JC_suburbangothcatmom
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Wow, you have a plate full of responsibilities. You are an amazing person. It could only the love of GOD that sustains you. Logging and tracking can help you get to your goals...
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: John10251
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16 jul. 22 por el miembro: buenitabishop
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Oh, guys, Thank you so much. Seriously, your comments and encouragement helped me all day. Whenever I had a moment, I was checking my phone and feeling the strength you all shared with me. One day on track. 3 mile walk with hubby before work, and I stayed under on my calories. I wish I could reply to you all. I simply don't have the time. Tonight, but please know how much every single hug and heart and word of cheer meant /means to me!
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: melissatwa
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Princess, I know I have to just go for it. I afraid of just failing again, since I've been slacking and struggling so much. If I have some success, I know it will build. I just can't stay here. And to your man Diablo, thank you so much! You two mean so much to me, and you know the whole story. Thank you for your prayers and support!
16 jul. 22 por el miembro: melissatwa
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