Thursday Morning - February 27th. All Things Food have been much better for two days. A interesting 'awareness' of the traps I'd set for myself revealed when the thought passed my mind, 'well, thank goodness I'll be away from these temptations this weekend.' When the home isn't the 'safe' place, well, there's no one to blame but me.
Such slippery slopes I construct for myself. Improving blood sugar and cholesterol lab results seemed to give my tongue and dipping hand carte blanche with the peanut butters (yes, a variety) and cherry preserves I was adding to my oatmeal at night; lying to myself in a manner of 'if a little is okay, a lot more is fine too.' Wrong. All things in moderation.
For me it builds and in the absence of mindfulness I found myself laying in bed (sans plate, light, or any sign of eating with attention) quickly devouring a large piece of chocolate candy while watching TV in the dark. Acid reflux and a 5lb jump on the scale prompted a 'water flush and intermittent fast' Tuesday. The excess departed Wednesday and my resolve returned reminding me I need to try to do a little better.
Read this browsing Pinterest during a long phone monologue yesterday (theirs, not mine):
If you have a bad thought about yourself tell it to go to hell because that's exactly where it came from.' Good reminder, hmmm?
Deep tissue massage last night left me feeling like a puddle of butter. (Mmm, butter, LOL) It was incredible. I'm sore but feel some of the pain is on the way out. I have been doing yoga stretches here at home; not ready to return to the classroom yet.
I was thinking about how I have fallen off the wagon so many times and thought about fortitude. Reflection led me to wonder if the reason I seem to feel so much calmer and wiser with age isn't so much experience as it is surrender. Is the reality that I haven't really learned or gained anything, I just gave in to the universe and let it rule?'
And the following link is '35 Little Hacks That Will Make Parenting So Much Easier' for all the new mommies and daddies out there. I thought it was pretty cute. Especially the gaming remote and swing tip.
Click Here to read the 35 TipsI may write later, or I may not be here in print for a few days. Either way, know that you all remain in my heart and will be in the car with Mushy and me as we venture out on our trip; a first in a long time without someone here at home wondering if we made it safely. We'll be fine. I know I have a hoard of Angels protecting me.
Until I return, take care my friends.
Bella