Diario de melissatwa, 02 ago. 21

I've had a couple really rotten days on the intake front. Until this evening, I'd had a great day with my eating and was ready to wrap up a nice recovery day... Until I really, really lost it. My stress has been through the roof and isn't likely to ease much for a bit. Tonight was so rough and I turned to my "old friends" sweet and savory in unlimited quantities. I am not really looking for tips or advice from folks who "have all the answers." The people here who both know me and understand know how hard it is may say whatever they like. You know what it is to be on guard all the time against the old habits that want to creep back. I know you get it. I'm so dang tired of the hard work. I'm mad about my knee making calorie burning so hard. I am genuinely (insert many bad words here) upset about some really big sorrows and fears in my family. Last week I felt thin and fit and strong. Today I feel like a fat lump with a swollen tummy and a sad heart.

I will fast the whole day tomorrow. I certainly don't need a single calorie... I ate them all tonight. A long and hard upper body workout may help my frame of mind and my frame. This is not as a punishment but a use of the energy I already gave my body. Getting back on track with my RDI for a nice week will put me back into my normal range. I am babbling on about this to be accountable. I can do better and I will. Thanks... for anyone who actually got through this long entry. I usually do the short versions. Tonight is just the discouraged and mad and sad version. Onward we trudge!

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Oh, daviska95, I am so desperately sorry things are so hard for you. How unbelievably hard. I hope you can get some help and find a way forward to take care of yourself and your needs. Thank you for sharing and being kind to me. Hang in there! We are on this crazy journey together even as strangers! ❤️ 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: melissatwa
Honestly, I'm often scared of sliding back too. Probably won't feel safe until it's been five years at least. 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: LaughingChevre
Fritzy, dear girl, I know you have so many struggles right now. Isn't life kind of frustrating??? Goodness. Thank you for your understanding. We can make it together! I'm glad you are here! ❤️ 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: melissatwa
I get it. Sometimes I really don't get my behavior. Sometimes I think I eat BECAUSE I am angry at myself for not being able to control things, myself and the things (people), and situations in the world around me. 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: ruthe1213
Thanks, ConfidenceMaven! 😘 You make me smile! And thank you for everyone who supports! 💚 It means so much to have an army of folks understanding fighting alongside!  
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: melissatwa
The habits die hard. I have my own to contend with. Just know a bobble isn't a failure. We all do new things imperfectly. :) 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: writingwyo
lineruds, thank you! That is all super good advice and I appreciate your "getting it!" I know it isn't about perfection but moving forward and making better choices. Food is the thing we have to have and how we use it is... Well for good or bad. Hope you have a great day! 😁  
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: melissatwa
Shrewdness, you sweet and fun soul! Thank you for your words of encouragement this morning. I am so very grateful to not be alone and to have the excitement of sharing victory, the kick in the pants (yes, sk, that's you) when I'm settling in feeling like a failure, and a bit of love rigbt now... I'm am doing better this morning! I will head off to the gym now. .. I have to get going or won't have time! Thank you for believing in me!!! ❤️ 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: melissatwa
LaughingChevre, you are doing so well and absolutely have the most incredible healthy foundation for the future you have before you! I too feel like at 5 years keeping the weight of and staying fit will be a big victory and I will feel more at ease that I can keep going forever. I am so grateful for this community! So incredible to know I have friends here who support and understandi! We learn ad grow and keep going together!  
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: melissatwa
Yes, ruthe, exactly! ❤️ And one thing I can control right now is getting moving before I don't have time! Thank you all again! I won't have any time to respond for the rest of the day. Thank you for all the love! Hugs back at you all!!!!!  
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: melissatwa
Melissa, I do well with some parts (training hard, tracking, being consistent, not going crazy about numbers in isolation) but am weak in other ways (donuts lol). Reading all your stories reminds me of the different challenges people face and things to learn ❤️ 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: LaughingChevre
Is it something in the air? I too have been having eating issues... especially at night. Im not stressed, just not feeling well... I hope you are able to rebound, you know my thoughts and prayers are always with you!💜💜💜 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: Diana 1234
Melissa I'm sorry that you feel burdened with the stresses of life. I won't make light of them. I pray that you continue to hold onto your faith. It has carried you this far and I believe it will carry you going forward. Ageing is a bitter pill to swallow until we consider the alternative. Sure, sore knees and joints, the loss of speedy recoveries and the extra effort it takes to maintain an active lifestyle are challenges that suck. I would love to feel competitive with the younger body builders here but that is not going to happen at my age. What has happened is that I have begrudgingly accepted my limitations and I try to allow myself to focus on what is best, right now; for me and mine. You are an amazing woman. You could have done a lot worst than turn to "sweet and savory" in frustration. A lot of people wish that was their problem. They are cheering for you and I am too. I'm not saying that all will be easy going forward. I am saying that a snack, is just a snack, and not a huge deal in the end. May peace and blessings be with you... 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: John10251
I'm with you. *Trudge trudge trudge* 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: JC_suburbangothcatmom
💖🤗 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: SherryeB
Rootin' and prayin' for it to work out Melissa🙏 I like you last response of controlling what you can👍👍 #ControlTheControllables 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: sk.17
I second everything that John10251 said. Well-said. We're all in this together girl! 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: AdaOke
I hear you Melissa. It happens, on so many different levels doesn't it? I so admire you. 💕 Looking at the overall picture, you've done an amazing job taking care of your family and yourself. I love that you get back up, every single time, no matter what it is. I here. 💕 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: _bec_ca
This is only a temporary state of mind for you! I know this because you are a smart lady! You are too intelligent (and strong!) to let this drag you down into a place where you don't feel comfortable. You will claw your way back to that place where you are happy. It's a challenge, but you are not a quitter! I'm sorry things are rough and I hope the tide turns quickly for you! 
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: BeauxS
Seriously, I am so incredibly blessed by you my friends. How can strangers mean so much? I guess it is years of looking into the little widows of our lives that we share here and trying to love and understand each other. When I look at your "names," I see real people who are a huge part of my life. Thank you so much for holding me up in my weakness. I am thankful to God for your kindness!  
03 ago. 21 por el miembro: melissatwa

     
 

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